I gained weight like 3 lbs! And its part fat and I ripped a pair of jeans! I don’t know what is wrong with me! I am dancing a ton. I am going to the gym a ton and I am eating really healthy. I am being careful to eat enough protein and all that good stuff since I am doing so much but I am just not losing weight. This is so frustrating. I just want to curl up into a ball. I am huge and fat. 

I want to submit a video audition for a dance job but I can’t if I continue down this path of fat and pathetic I will never be hired. 

I am so tired of feeling alone. Nobody wants to be with me. I’m so tired of that. Like there is literally no hope for me at this point. I just want someone to are about me and spend time with me and like me and like being with me. I have tried not looking I have tried looking I have tried not caring and I have tried caring too much. I tried being ok with being single and it is to the point where I am just plain tired of it. I want someone to be with. I just desire that companionship. I feel pathetic. Does anyone have any advice for me?