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I have been friends with him since my freshman year of high school he is now a senior in college and I am a junior in college. I would not be where I am today without him. He knows everything. And I am pretty sure I love him. I want to talk to him all the time but I don’t get to talk to him too much we live really far apart but when I do I don’t want to conversation to end.

The thought of being away from him forever terrifies me but its a real possibility since he has a job after graduation lined up where he goes to school which is on the opposite side of the country. He also doesn’t come home very often and when he does I do my best to see him as much as possible.

We have always been just friends even though I am fairly sure he had a crush on me when I was a freshman but I never knew for sure.

I want to tell him that I don’t know what I would do without him and that I think I care about him more than just a friend but I would probably just ruin things. What do I do? Do I say anything? What do I say? What if he feels the same? We can’t really do anything about it I don’t even know the next time I will see him.   

for someone to want me

to not continually be disappointed

to love someone

someone to love me

someone to hold me

someone to talk to

to not feel alone

to not spend every night thinking about how lonely I am

to not be lonely anymore

I want so badly to feel normal and happy. Anything but this.